I’ve started a ton of blogs that I inevitably lose track of. I have the best of intentions going in… but I get distracted easily. The blog seems to be just another version of a new journal. I’m one of those people with about 27+ freshly started journals. This will be the one I write all the way through, and change my life completely. ha…

Welcome to untreated adult ADHD. (and no… I have no intentions of seeking treatment. I’m 37 years old. I was diagnosed at 35. I’ve dealt with it this long. I’ll just continue to deal.)

Anyway, not my first rodeo here… I know the drill. You want to know what this blog will be about. The truth is… I’ve tried niche blogs so many times. Organizing the content, and so on, but that’s not what I aim to do here.

I’m 37 years old. Learned that I’m perimenopausal. (So, that’s fun.) I thought by now I would have my life figured out, but recently had the realization that no one ever has their lives figure out. We are ALL being our ages for the first, going through our lives for the first time.

But that’s just the tiniest facet of me. It’s just that that piece is the part that triggered me to give myself a closer look than I have been.

I’m a witch. I fall in with the Pagan crowd, though I don’t consider myself Pagan. Pagan’s tend to accept me more readily than other spiritual paths though. I am Poly, though not partnered up outside of my nesting partner. I have someone I was talking to, but we never quite got it off the ground… and now it’s long distance. I welcome my relationships as they are though.

I’m an administrator for a well known automotive brand. I feel really divided from that role, though. I am currently (and painfully slowly) studying for a career change into Software Development. I have NO idea how to break into that, but an education in it seems to be a good start.

For the purposes of this blog, I’ll be going by a nickname I have picked up. Linda. My name is already pretty close to this. You can read more about it on my About Me page. I’m maintaining some semblance of anonymity, primarily for the ability to write freely. Also, because I anticipate exploring some… sexually charged topics.

I recently picked up my crochet again, and found the world of NSFW crochet. I have found beautiful patterns for lingerie and other skimpy sexy things. I plan on embracing my divine femme and lean into my sexiness. Something I haven’t exactly been encouraged to do. I mean… my husband encourages it, haha… but I feel like he’s biased.

As I lean into being an actual woman… I find myself confronted with heavy things I never paid attention to as a younger woman. Mostly because the decisions were made for me. For example: I follow a natural birthcontrol, technology meets old school fertility tracking. This took great courage on my part. (Which now that I’ve been doing this for a while, is strange to me. You shouldn’t be as worried as I was about the method you choose to use for birth control.)

Anyway, my point is… this will be primarily female conversations, and imagery, and so on. Not exactly something I necessarily feel like sharing with…. I don’t know… my father? haha… as it is, I made a really cute crocheted crop top. It was the equivalent of a bikini top. I was proud and posted a picture of it on my Facebook. About a week later, my Dad had called. He asked what I was doing. I told him I was crocheting. He said “Oh, another hussy top?”

He meant well… but I’m a recovering emotional Co-dependent. So, I laughed it off then, but my brain raced with all the ways I was letting him down.

Anyway, enough of all that. I think you get the gist of what I’m doing here. And if you made it this far… well… Welcome.

Let’s see if I make it past 3 posts.

~Linda